Today is the second anniversary of the first of 4 miscarriages. I am due with this baby in Sunday and have a feeling she will arrive today. I can't decide if having her today would help heal the past or just be too weird. I am also naming her after my mum who died last year and don't want her birth to forever be connected with loss which her arriving today would contribute to.
I am feeling very off and anyone I have spoken to irl seem to dismiss my worries and just say to focus on new baby. My heart hurts.