It is likely due to my medical background that I will be recommended or at least permitted to have a C section. I am frankly terrified of giving birth naturally for various reasons.
I think a C section is probably best for me but have read a lot about permanent stomach overhang - how likely is this to happen? Am I going to look pregnant forever if I have a C section? I'm sorry if this sounds vain but I worry that I will struggle with my self-esteem if I'm stuck with a permanent and obvious stomach deformity. Obviously I know pregnancy will have some effect on me physically... but I'm worried that if a C section causes permanent extra damage I will beat myself up about having had one. By the same token I don't think I would have the mental strength to deal with a 4th degree tear or traumatic birth.
Sorry, I hope this doesn't sound self-absorbed and silly and vain, I want my baby here safely more than anything but am likely to be vulnerable to PND and am trying to make the best decisions to avoid this.