Not sure if much help but I’ll explain my experiences!
Currently in hospital waiting to be taken to theatre, after starting induction Saturday morning.
This is my 4th birth - my son died at 39 weeks just after he was born from an unexpected disorder. The birth was quite scary - he was highly distressed, I had the FBS but it kept clotting. He was too far down to attempt a c section so I had an episiotomy and forcep delivery (after failed ventouse)
For some reason, when I had my DD1 less than 2 years after I was fine. It was my DD2 labour that brought everything back, even though it was a simple straightforward labour.
It scared me so much that I was waiting to be sterilised when I fell pregnant with this baby (DD3) - big fail! It took a lot of counselling to go ahead and I was adamant I wanted a section. However after many sessions with consultant and bereavement midwife I decided on induction on my due date.
Since Sat I have had 2 pessaries and 2 gels - I have hardly moved on the bishops score. Doctor said he could break my waters but I would need the drip (which I’m terrified of) and if it doesn’t progress, forceps if baby becomes distressed.
At this point, I decided to request a section again. For me personally, it’s that loss of control over a vaginal birth that made me make that decision.
I’m sorry that this is not that helpful. Just wanted you to know someone understands your fears after a loss. Unless you’ve been through it, it’s so hard to comprehend. Fwiw the other 3 women who were induced with me on Sat have all gone on to have their babies!
Induction itself was not painful - don’t feel the pessary and the gel is just a bit cold. You being overdue will hopefully mean your cervix is ready as well. Get walking around as soon as they say you can and make sure you bring lots of stuff to entertain you!
I hope everything goes well for you!