Getting scared, so unlike me!

[Liwwybettykins]

Heya everyone, guess I'm just looking for general support and also to see how normal this is, because I'm pretty sure it must be!
I'm 39 plus 1 today. First baby. Big baby. Blood pressure been rising through pregnancy but still okay. Gad my first sweep at 38 due to size and second yesterday.
I have just been so stressed! Im a big ball of nerves. I feel like the baby being big is my fault so that makes me feel guilty because I didnt eat well enough - I've put on 55 pounds and god knows how but Im hoping alot of it is just the swelling because I havent been inactive or anything.
Im worried Ive been a bad mum already and that I wont be maternal enough. Im fed up of being in the house on my own and saving up fir mat leave means I cant even just go out and get myself a coffee at a cafe or something.

I think I need this baby to come soon because waiting is making me freak out

I remember the waiting with my first, it was horrible. Baby didn't end up coming until 42 weeks! 😮

All that you are feeling is completely normal. I know it's hard but try to keep busy. This time will pass.

Thanks rock and roll with it. I guess I just dont have alot to keep busy with! Only moved to the area recentky and don't have any family or friends nearby really

Hi Liwwy,
I just wanted to say hi - I am also 39 weeks, 2 days and am having mixed emotions too. I have also put on a lot of weight and worrying about birth but at the same time impatient along with wondering if I am going to be an ok mum, am I going to cope ok? All sorts of thoughts racing. The waiting is hard but at the same time I am clinging on to a sense of normality in that I just don't know what to expect and it's sooo scary! Just so you know you're not alone. I have resorted to playing online games to try and stop my mind from racing while I am off on mat leave and have too much time to fret! Seems to be helping a little bit. Try to remain positive and enjoy your last few days if you can. I am going to probably look for some groups once baby is here to go to and get some support that way too.

Hey, I was also 39 + 6 at my first pregnancy. Take it easy. Don't be nervous or stressed. It's a beautiful experience. Why you are not a good mom? Don't feel like think. You are surely a good mom that's why you are again going to give birth another one cutie. I also experience the somehow same feelings. I didn't eat too much but my baby was too healthy. I just astonished how it can be happened. My hubby told me your dieting plan effect only your health not baby's health. Baby will fulfil it's requirements from your blood. Wait a little, I can say some days, then you can go to cafe or wherever you want to go. Don't be scared and enjoy this time.