Anyone else had experience of being totally messed about re: elective c-section?
Due to having ante-natal depression, I was adamant that I wanted a plan putting in place that would enable some tiny fragment of stability for the birth, and for my husband and I, the option that we felt was most solid was an elective section. I spoke to a consultant who was overseeing me in blood pressure clinic (pre-existing and well managed high BP) and he told me all the horror stories he could to put me off, but following this, we decided to still proceed as planned as we get the mental risks were more risky for me than physical ones. My midwife duly booked in the section for 13th July, so we felt really happy that everything g was organised and we could plan accordingly. I then got a call from her last Thursday saying that the blood pressure consultant I'd spoken to wouldn't sign it off as he wanted someone from the gestational diabetes team to 'own' it, so I went into a bit of a panic as this didn't allow much time to really speak to anyone as the diabetes team couldn't see me until Tuesday this week (11 July). I spoke to the midwife who assured me it was just a paper exercise and it would all be fine. Not so. The diabetes consultant refused point blank to authorise it, and instead admitted me to hospital on Tuesday afternoon to 'monitor my blood sugar more closely' - which has actually involved me doing the exact same monitoring I do at home MYSELF and telling her what the results are, which I could have easily done by phone. I got no sleep at all being on a ward and my stress levels went through the roof.
I am just absolutely furious that they have paid absolutely no attention to the psychological aspect of my birth plan. I wasn't having a section because I wanted to avoid childbirth, it was because I am only clinging on by a thread to my mental health and couldn't face the stress of being in hospital for an extended period for BS reasons. They left me completely in limbo yesterday with no direction on what the next steps would be, which caused massive stress for me, and only rolled in at 3pm today to say they now plan to induce me tomorrow (again, with no consultation or discussion to see if that's what we want!), which I have read often ends in a section anyway, so I will have ended up with literally the worst outcome they could have devised for me.
I am soooooooo angry and upset that I've been put in this situation and that mine and my husband's choices have been completely disregarded. The fact that the consultant wouldn't even engage with the topic was also bang out of order - and she is now overseeing the induction which makes me hugely uncomfortable as I don't want her anywhere near me. To add insult to injury, they also made me wear compression socks last night that were so tight that they have cut welts into my legs.
This is at kings college hospital too, which is supposed to be good!!!! Absolutely awful experience so far.
Does anyone have any experience of how to try and come back from such a massive change of plans at the last minute? I feel completely overwhelmed and disconnected from the baby now which is making me sick with guilt.