I remember when pregnant with DC2, I wanted a secret third option. I didn't want an ELCS because obviously I had DC1 (who was due to start school when DC2 was due), I really did want to have a go at natural delivery and the reason for the EMCS first time round was a positional issue (DC1 was an attempted home water birth. I got to fully dilated and 8 hours later I was in surgery having an emcs. They transferred me in after 4hrs, tried a ventouse and a manual rotation but her position and head circumference meant that she just wasn't ever going to fit through). I was told that the first delivery was just bad luck in terms of position and there was no reason not to try for a VBAC and no reason not to believe it would work. However, I didn't particularly want another EMCS because while the CS itself was fine, recovery fine, breastfeeding fine etc, the long labour and intervention prior to emcs meant that I was knackered.
So, like I said, I waited for secret option number three to present itself. I think I was hoping it would be 'a sneeze birth' or 'magic' or something like that.
After a while it became clear that I really did have to choose and actually, it was a very frank discussion with my consultant that made up my mind. I talked about exactly what his parameters were for VBAC, what was negotiable, what wasn't. How long each stage would last for before they intervened, his individual opinion and statistics, what would and wouldn't be available to me as options. What an induction would mean given the previous cs and on and on and on. I came away from that meeting feeling like a VBAC was more of a known quantity. Instead of dithering about and wondering about things in theory, I knew the team who would be with me and how they would act in each scenario. It was knowing this that gave me the confidence to have a go at a VBAC.
And I did have a go. For 38 hours in the end. DC2 was in exactly the same position as DC1 but not engaged when labour started. I decided to give him time to descend and see if he moved into a better position whilst doing so. He did no such thing. He stayed stubbornly twisted and we made the decision to move to EMCS.
However, because I had a team looking after me very carefully and because I knew that they wouldn't let me get to the point of exhaustion and I felt safe, I had a very calm labour and slept at home in my own bed for a large part of it. I think I knew it was heading for EMCS anyway as it was identical to first time round, contractions were atypical and it wasn't progressing as you'd expect. I felt really positive about it, pleased I'd had a go and actually, I felt quite in sync with my body, even though it was a surgical delivery. My 2nd EMCS was honestly the happiest, most positive experience and recovery was fab. I didn't have any problems first time round but second time round, I bounced back even faster as I wasn't tired. I was up and about by dinner time (CS was at 15.30 ish), had a wander and a shower, watched a film in my chair, another wander round and then a good night's sleep (with a few feeds in there for good measure), got up and went home. Four days later, I walked DD to school. 8 weeks later I was back running.
I have absolutely no regrets about my decision at that time. It was absolutely right and I'm glad I had another go. I'm a bit sad that I won't ever have that moment of delivery but at the same time, I know that I did have that, it's just not the one in the textbooks. It was still the day I met my boy and felt him snuffling on my chest. I grew him, I brought him into the world safely and I don't actively want a normal delivery anymore. I did have that need before DS was born. If I had a DC3 (DH would leave me tbh as his vasectomy would probably hint at me having accosted the postman), I'd have an ELCS. Without doubt. My body isn't designed for natural delivery. The shape of my pelvis meant that my babies couldn't fit their (fairly large) heads in whilst in a manageable position.
I'd have a chat with your HCPs, talk to the consultant team you'd be under and see how you feel.
Congratulations. It seems like a monumental decision right now and I know if you're anything like me you'll worry about making the 'wrong' decision. I think the wrong decision doesn't exist. You simply don't know and all you can do is choose based upon the information available and what is right for you and your family.