Yesterday I had a brown, jelly blob in my underwear. I mentioned this to the midwife at the hospital two hours later after a scheduled growth scan. She seemed unconcerned, didn't do an internal to check DESPITE having internals last three weeks to check for fluid loss, which has been happening, and them finding 'no evidence'. Some say I will be wet all the time if I was leaking but others say not. I am on the side of the latter as I know when I am wetter and it isn't constant. Almost like I have a small leak and then nothing for days.
I was 'big' on Friday and Saturday and then on Sunday evening, I went to the loo, couldn't pee easily despite feeling a need for it, stood up and trickled. Thought it was baby moving and having a wee but I couldn't control it as such and started to think, was it my waters. Not all but a bigger leak than normal. Sure enough, belly size went down and fluid halved from last week 7cm to 4cm.
I was admitted yesterday for steroids then five hours later given a choice to stay or go home and go in as a day patient for steroids and monitoring (they did admit to being short staffed). I opted to go home as have a three year old who would fret.
So at home, I have another brown jelly discharge but not as much 12 hours after my first. Braxton hicks from 2am. At first irrelgualr, infrequent but then by 5am they were every twenty minutes. Stopped at 7:15am (got up and walked about) but had another brown show at 8am (freakishly every 12 hours) and another BH at about 8:20.
So does all this point to labour being in next few days or could it be weeks? Either way, c section is booked now for Friday - brought forward from 16th March unless fluid goes up as does growth and they will re-evaluate.
Fed up. I want this baby out now (37 weeks on Saturday). Sick of the uncertainty, fluid levels up and down, growth restricted (but nobody seems to know why) and anxious that something might go wrong when not being monitored. Three ladies I know of (one a friend, the others employee of childminder and daughter of a colleague) all had stillbirths from 37 weeks onwards and this is playing on my mind. None of them for same reasons - all different but all could have been prevented with more monitoring and better care.