39 weeks 3rd pg 1st HB Freaking OUT!

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I cant stop crying. Its so close now. This is a HBAC and I dont know who the hell I am trying to kid. I have massive babies and a low pain threshold. My Braxton Hicks wake me up in the night. Ive just booked everything and got everything ready for home birth. I cant do this. I cant stop crying. I made such a fuss about a HB, and I want an elcs. Im so confused. Gas and air and a pool of water isnt going to cut it.

You poor thing...you know that if you don't want to have that homebirth afterall then you can always go into Hospital...just go by what feels right for you at the time...try to just wait and see what happens and don't put yourself under pressure...there is no shame in going into Hospital if you decide that you feel better with that...but just give it all a try and see what happens!

poor you, anyone to give you a hug? it's horrible, as you know, waiting to give birht. You don't have to have a homebirth, not too late at all! Go with yr instinct!
Having said that, is it just last minute nerves? I had them, had a great home-=birht - and for me the pool and the gas definitely did cut itand i[m the biggest wimp ever. Does that help at all?

After a day of sobbing and panic, Im starting to calm down a bit. The thought of my ds birth (3 failed inductions and finally a cs after 4 days of pain) it was so barbaric. I just cant believe Im doing this again. Every person i have spoke to that is HBAC has said how different it is without being induced, but you cant help but wonder - what about me? What if I am really useless and not an earth mother type? I know i can transfer in, but what an absolute failure.

It's not being a failure to transfer to hospital during a home birth. Don't ever think that.

I've had 2 hospital births and then a homebirth this February, in a pool. To be completely honest, it was the most painful of my 3 labours but it was also over in less than half the time (9 hrs form very beginning compared to 20 and 23!) and afterwards, being at home was bliss.

mstg i sympathise with you. i gave birth to my fifth child in february and was anitcipating a home birth, I had not had sections previously. I was intending to have a calm water birth and bought the pool etc. Even did a practice fill etc. Two days before the birth i had worked myslef into such a frenzy that i gave up entirely on the idea. went to hospital for my overdue appt and refused to go home. had a sweep and then SCREAMED for an epidural ( after four natural deliveries) gave birth in a calm and pain free manner to a very calm baby but with lots of midwives asking 'why'

Glad you are calmer, I've had 3 babies both ds 's at home ds1 7yrs ago and ds2 7weeks ago I got an attack of nerves both times but in the end they were both fab. I found the key is to trust the midwife's ability and your own. I listen to my midwife all the way through and didn't have any tears and just a small graze with ds1 and nothing with ds2 who wasn't small at 8lb 5oz. You can't fail at anything you''ve already made a beautiful baby you just have the small matter of getting it out!

Best of luck I'll look out for your announcement

if it's not too weird-sounding to you, you could try www.tap-tap.co.uk

the home page has a rolling banner about birth.

i realise emotional freedom technique isn't for everyone but it worked for me and was worth every penny. did it by phone with a box of tissues, no fun at the time but after nearly three years i can talk about first birth rationally and without crying and have since had asuccessful home birth hence typing one-handed

happy to talk to you about it if you are interested, CAT me if you like.

I'm glad you are feeling better about things, but even if you do labour at home for a while and find it too much, you can always go to hospital if you need to.

Thank you for your support ladies. i suppose this freaking out is quite normal after the memory of my last labour. Its like bungee jumping. Ive done all the fund raising, all the planning, made the trip and now i am at the top of a bridge about to jump off. Did I really think this out?
The thought of it being even more painful but shorter you have got to be kidding. It cant hurt any more than it did. It was like breaking my leg slowly. It wasnt pain it was another dimension. I swear the gel is evil. I just hope and pray that natural labour is better than being induced.

you okay today? Hope so! I had my 2nd home-birth and for me it was so much less painful than my 1st in hospital, if that helps? never been induced but sounds often horrendous, from what i've heard, so no, IMO natural childbirth no way compares to that painwise (and I'm no earth mother, either, believe me!)