Hi all,
I am currently 21 weeks pregnant with my second child. I am high risk due to epilepsy and i had pre clampsia with my first pregnancy and a PPH where I lost 2 litres of blood. It was quite traumatic. I went into have a sweep at 40 weeks and found my BP was sky high and protein in urine, they told me to go home get bags and come back to be induced. When i got back I was already 5cm dilated but they broke my waters and were concerned about BP so stuck the drip on me. I went from 5cm to 9 pretty quickly (less than an hour) it was horrendous. I had no time to take any pain relief apart from gas and air, I wasn't allowed the pool room as they worry I'll have a fit in the water and they wanted me flat on my back all the time incase I fitted. I felt very confined and the experience was something I don't wish to repeat. During pushing the head kept coming down but wouldn't come further so I had to be cut then had him delivered via ventouse, straight after I bled and had the crash team called and was ill for weeks and weeks after. This all mucked up my convulsant levels in my blood to and i had constant seizures for 3 months after the baby was born till i could be seen by a neuro so couldn't even be left alone with my baby for that time either.
Anyway this time I have decided it would be better for me to have a c section. I know all the risks as I have worked in hospitals but it is what I've decided for many reasons, the thought of giving birth naturally again makes me panic and they have already told me I'll have to go to labour suite, no birthing centres, no pool room again, my family live miles away so having a date and not waiting round when i could go overdue for 2 weeks means I can get help from family coming down and booking time off work IF anything does flare up from the epilepsy to. I told the obsterician i wanted one at my 13 week check up she said "think about it more" and didn't even put it in my notes then yesterday I saw her again and she's said she won't refer me to a surgeon wants me to think more but has scribbled I have mentioned it in my notes.
I feel like they are just pushing me and waiting for me to just do what they want and I really don't want to. I am not scared of the pain, it's the whole experience I don't wish to go near again and feel I am better suited to a c secton this time because of my health problems. I plan to breast feed etc as they have told me i will have trouble if I have a c section (??) can they refuse to give me one??