Just need a hug!
Warning though - scary birth story.
Had baby at 0624 this morning - after "good" birth in pool but baby's heart beat started to drop so they whipped me out and pushed him out in stirrups with a million midwives helping. Cord was 3 times around his neck and he was pale and floppy. Staff were awesome and are being really positive, he was with a Dr in minutes and then into specialised care - breathing on own,
heart beat good, sucking reflex, normal sleep waking brain activity - but I had a retained placenta
so have just come out of theatre (all removed and sorted) and have to wait until I can get in a wheelchair (spinal block) before I can see him again! DP has seen him obv and Drs have been giving me updates but that doesn't make this less scary!
Despite everything looking positive it was clear that baby was stressed during birth and swallowed Miconium as well as having less oxygen than is ideal - they describe him as grizzly- so they are going to cool him over the next 3 days to prevent brain damage....
I'm just siting her in a bed eating the lunch provided doing nothing.
..... Feels awful!