Hi All, Im new to all this and have finally plucked up the courage to write a post to see if anyone else is going through the same as i am. I gave birth to my little girl just over two years ago now. She came in 6 minutes of pushing which resulted in a 4th Degree tear. I had reconstruction surgery in the early hours of the morning and then tried to get on with enjoying my new little baby girl. As time went on I knew that something wasnt right and I buried my head in the sand and hoped that it would go away. I had no control keeping wind in and then it got worse and worse. I finally plucked up the courage and went to see my Dr which referred me back to the hospital where i gave birth. I had various tests and the then put to sleep for exploratory surgery. The results came back and they showed that my top anal sphincter was not in tacked and that the muscle wall between the two canals have a hole in it. This now means that i have to have perianal reconstruction. I have been back and seen both the surgeons but i still really dont know what is going to happen. I am going into hospital a week on tuesday and im crapping myself (no pun intended)!! They told me that it is a rare thing to happen and it was worth trying to talk to other mothers that this has happened to. But finding them is the hard part. Im sorry if i have offended anyone with the graphic bits but im running out of time to try and prepare myself. Any help would be gratefully appreciated!! Thank you!!!