and I'm not sure if how I am feeling/ looking is normal.
A bit of background: I gave birth to my son just over eight weeks ago, he was a big baby, I'm quite small, was pushing for nearly two hours and he wasn't coming. So I ended up with forceps and an episitomy. I was told it would either be forceps or ventouse depending on what the doctor thought would be most successful. I was then told they were going for forceps. I don't remember being asked if this was ok (and neither does my partner). I didn't know anything about the episitomy they performed until afterwards when I was told that they had done it. I feel quite angry about this but that could be an issue for a whole other thread.
To start with I didn't heal well, I was told my stitches were coming apart. I have since had four doses of antibiotics for potential infection and been referred to consultant at hospital who I have seen twice. The second time she cut away some scar tissue after giving me a general anesthetic which she said should help me to heal (this was two weeks ago).
I still feel in a fair bit of pain, particularly if I walk anywhere for longer than around half an hour. I have throbbing pain in the area around the scar and at times it stings. I plucked up the courage to look for the first time earlier this week, it looks to me like the cut has not come together and instead is healing with a gap between. Although I'm not entirely sure what is normal? I'm starting to feel a bit down about it all now.
Anyone been in a similar situation in the past? Should I be feeling better by now or am I perhaps doing too much (going to the shops for an hour/ general housework, cooking etc)? Considering giving the consultants secretary a call to try and get an earlier appointment (not going again till end of April) to hopefully get some of my questions answered.
Thank you if you have managed to read this far!