I had an amazing birth a few weeks back. It was a planned home waterbirth, I was so determined that it was different from birth no 1. Like you I read lots of positive stories - mainly on a water birth site. I read Childbirth Without Fear, I thought of helpful mantras to chant and took a few minutes each day to go through them (yes, very wanky).
Labour kicked off in the morning, contractions every four minutes. I visualised my cervix dilating and thinning each time and turned the pain into good pain (yes, yes, still very wanky).
Labour stopped for a few hours, this happened in my previous birth but this time no one twanged me on a drip to get it going. Then when it all kicked off again it was so fast I laboured and pushed on my own. Actually I really liked being on my own, I always said I just wanted to be left to get on with it. Contractions were ok, through each one I was chanting 'every contraction brings me closer to my baby'. I had one contraction that suddenly I felt was unmanageable and I just whimpered throughout but I realised I had reached transition. So I changed position and three times my body pushed, I was a passenger really, it felt so good though. Then I remember a flurry of activity in the hallway as my mum arrived for DS, and the midwife arrived. Midwife walked in, said hello and started unpacking. Meanwhile I felt the head slip out, and sort of knelt in the water holding the head wondering what to do/say. Then my waters went, baby flew out. I caught her, lifted her out of the water and all I could think was 'wow, that was AWESOME.'
I buzzed for days afterwards
I felt so empowered.
Sorry that was long, have been meaning to get it written down for ages and the words just flew out.