Firstly I don't want to start a natural birth versus CS debate and I am speaking from my very limited experience as a first time mum to be.
I'm 38w 2d and last week the doctor discovered my baby was breech and it was agreed that this incoming week I would have a CS. I had never considered a CS before as all along everyone involved kept saying "baby is in great position". For some reason the baby turned, I think I was aware of it but cannot be sure.
I am aware of the risks of a CS but when the doctor said that a CS was best, I was happy, relieved almost. I explicitly said that a planned section was much preferable to me than a crash one and this way I knew what to expect and could plan ahead. (Incidentally it was only a chance scan that revealed the baby was breech, as technically I was not due any further scans- community midwife requested a hospital scan due to her concerns about size.)
I was never very keen on the idea of a natural birth; fear, intense dislike of internal examinations, feelings of panic, smear tests going wrong; but I just had to blot these things out during my pregnancy and adopt the attitude of face the fear, no other option etc.
Now I will get to the point and thank you if you have read this far! AIBU to hope that my baby stays breech so as I can go ahead with the CS? They absolutely won't go ahead if baby has turned (and I fully understand this) but I am driving myself crazy thinking that I could arrive in the hospital and just be sent straight home again.
I know I'm not unique to be in this position and so many other women have had to face this and much worse. It is consuming all my thoughts at the moment because I just feel that I don't know what will happen.
Sorry for the ramble.
