I've had three vaginal deliveries with varying degrees of pain and tearing. I am so anxious about giving birth again. I totally lost it during transition with DC3 and when I knew that I had the urge to push I really didn't want to (I got on with it and all was fine but felt totally out of control and hated it). The only pain relief I've had was some gas and air during transition/pushing with DC3 to help calm me down and make everything seem possible to me.
So now I'm pg with DC4 and do not want to lose it like that again. I would love a calm birth but can't help but think that I've got too many memories of giving birth for this to be possible. Is hypnobirthing likely to help or should I just resign myself to the inevitability of birth and get on with it?