I'm omly 20 weeks pregnant so it's a bit early to be worying myself about things like this. However, I had to post as for the last week or so, I've been absolutely freaking myself out thinking about the birth - this is first DC.
It's not the pain per se, although I know that will be agony. But I'm really really worried about possibly needing an epidural. The thought of not being able to feel my legs or move properly when I will already be feeling quite out of control anyway, makes me feel absolutely terrified.
I'm worried that I'll need to be induced. My understanding is if they do that, an epidural is basically mandatory so I won't be able to refuse.
I haven't told anyone about this but I'm working myself up in to a right old state about it to the extent that I actually feel like I can't breathe properly thinking about it - which is really not like me.
I've tried asking people who've had them what it was like. They all say it was amazing as they were in agony before. I've asked how they felt about not being able to move and they said they didn't really notice as they were in so much pain before. That makes me feel slightly better but I'm still so worried about it and I'm scared of being in labour and being scared all through labour worrying about this damn epidural.
DH is a dentist and quite often talks about "difficult" patients that I know he is lovely and professional to their faces but he finds it difficult to understand why they won't have a particular treatment as it will help them. Which is the rationale thing to think of course. But I'm worried when I speak to him about this he won't get it because it won't be logical to him and I'm worried that the midwives and the doctors won't either and I'll be in labour and really frightened And I just won't know what to do.
Sorry for the huge post but I feel so much better for writing it down. I know that their is probably nothing anyone can say but any tips or advice would be very gratefully received.