Starlight, I also refused a second induction, prior to the event, my first DD was a 50 hour induced labour with uterine hyperstimulation (a four hour contraction, basically) followed by a brutal forceps delivery extended third degree tear, lacerated cervix and vagina... Etc. DD and I were lucky to get out alive. My body doesn't like induction, but I'm aware that's not the norm and why in the majority of cases induction is preferable to ECS.
Because of going post dates before, the MWs wanted to put a plan in place in case it happened again. At this point I informed them that I would not consent to another induction. I would want to be monitored in the hope that I would go into labour spontaneously, but if there were concerns for the safety of the baby, then I would request a CS.
One midwife said she didn't think I was ALLOWED to refuse induction. To which I politely replied that I was ALLOWED to do anything I wanted, as it was my baby and my body, and that while they may not be able to recommend or support my decision, that's not the same thing.
So I was frog marched like a naughty child to a consultant. Went through the same thing. She said that they would ONLY do induction for post dates. "Not to me, you won't" was my reply. Asked if she had read the notes from the birth of DDone. Admitted she hadn't. Suggested she did so. Once she had skimmed them I asked if, having read that, she could see my POV. She said yes, but that she would still recommend induction. I said that I would refuse. Bit if a stand off at that point. I think she resided that I wasn't backing down, and wrote in my notes that they would schedule an ECS sometime during my 42 week, so long as the baby seemed to be doing fine up to that point.
So I won, even though I was made to feel as if I was a very disobedient child for doing so.
As it was DD2 was born the day after her due date, in water (another fight, for another thread). It was a great birth, (despite massive PPH!).
So OP I can understand both why you wouldn't want induction, and that it would have been a battle.
But I don't understand you reluctance to meet the consultant who would have been responsible for the surgical procedure you were contemplating.
Understand that it might have been stressful, but only while it lasted, and I can't see how it would have had a signifying impact on your ability to go into labour spontaneously...
BTW, it took a full year of trauma counselling to get over/past my first both experience. You may have already done this, but if you haven't, it seems like something which may be beneficial to you...
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