I had a meeting with my.consultant last week regarding my previous birth 2.5 years ago.
I too had forceps delivery (Neville Barnes) with no pain relief. It was very traumatic and also traumatised my husband!
My.consultant was shocked to read my notes from last birth and said that even though it was an emergency and dd had to.come out straightaway, it must have been horrendous. He wasn't wrong.
However, I'm currently 34 weeks pregnant and so am doing it again.
I would advise you to talk to your midwife for a debrief about what happened and ask for explanations. I didn't ask anything about what happened with my birth until last week when I suddenly realised I'd have to do it again!
It was very cathartic to talk about it with a professional and to.understand that it is very unusual to have this type of delivery with no pain relief. I so wish I'd talked about it at the time as I went over and over the birth in my head for probably a year afterwards.
I'm feeling more confident.now about this birth (I think!) as they've plastered it all over my notes and so its very unlikely to happen again.
It's horrible to have a traumatic birth, I.hope you feel better soon.