When I gave birth to my DS the labour went really well until his shoulders got stuck in my pelvis. At the time I don't think I realised how much of an emergency it was (though the emergency buzzer was pressed and the room filled with medical staff), but now I've had chance to digest what happened I have realised how close we were to something going terribly wrong...
It wasn't a severe SD, the midwife performed McRoberts, and after some pushing from me, and some tugging, DS was born. He did go to the resus table, but at the time I wasn't worried as I saw he was a good colour. So it wasn't anywhere near as bad as the SD on OBEM a few weeks ago...
However, the experience has put me off getting pregnant again. I am a logical and rational person usually, but I really can't get my head round putting a baby through that risk again. I think maybe what I'mm struggling with is a went for a debrief a few months after DS was born and when speaking to the consultant she didn't couldn't say why it had happened, though she summised because I am obese that might have been a factor, or that DS was 9lb (though he was a long baby, definitely not big, or GD), or it could have been that DS was in a bad position, or due to midwife inexperience, but they don't really know.
So given that debrief, I am making positive steps to loose weight in case that was a factor. However, what if this wasn't the issue? What if it is that I have a small pelvis? My worry is that the second baby might be bigger than DS, and the consequences could be worse.
I think the problem is that I know that I might not be able to control whether I have a second SD or not, and that is what I feel uncomfortable about.
I do feel sad about it though, as DS is 17months old now, and I was really planning a large family, and now I think he may end up an only child. But I really don't want to risk losing a baby...
Thing is, I know people who have had a way worse experience, and they have managed to brush themselves off and carry on to have other babies. In fact, I am usually the kind of person who gets over stuff easily and gets on with things, so can't make out why I feel like this.
I am hoping when I start to feel properly broody again, that I won't care and will cross the bridge when we come to it, but the broody feeling really is not there...
Has anyone got any experience of this? Or can anyone advise?