Hi I'm hoping someone can offer some advice. My ds is almost two and towards the end of the year we are thinking about getting pregnant again.
The problem is I am terrified of giving birth again and going through the whole new baby thing. I am not a fan of the new born stage!
I had serious complications last time, my epistomoy got infected, burst open and I had to have emergency reconstruction surgery. I have a massive scar that even two years later I can't really touch or look at.
Every time a get a fever I freak out, I am currently sick now, and broke down and cried this afternoon in complete fear and panic. A fever was the first sign that something was seriously wrong and I ignored it.
I also had pnd which I had a hard time dealing with but I am now okay.
I have tried coucelling and really thought I had made peace with all the issues around my ds birth last time, but obviously not!
Does anyone have any suggestions on how they got over bad birth/ new born experiences? I would like to go into the conception process with positivity, not dread.
any advice gratefully received xxx