Was going to namechange as serious tmi coming up so apologies!
In a nutshell, I had a straightforward vbac 8 months ago, and a small second degree tear. On my 6 week check they said it had not healed properly and I would have to go back for a restitch. Fast forward 7 months after loads of infections, granulated tissue etc etc, I've had the surgery. I noticed before the surgery I was in burning pain on one side of my labia and my urethra, but assumed it was referred pain from my perineum and part of the constant infections.
I've had the restitch 3 weeks ago and all felt a bit more settled, until I went to my gp for a check up two weeks ago and he took out all my stitches! Since then I've had pain on one side again, difficulty in going the toilet( both ends- apologies!). And the pain seems to have ramped up.
Mentally I feel I'm going insane and finding it all very hard to deal with, as this has now been going on for months. I keep reliving the decisions myself and hcp's have made that has got my poor chuff into the state, and keep going over and over 'if I'd just had a section'. I'm in tears most days throughout the day, just with the pain and frustration of not being able to live a normal life, with no sex life and unable to sit properly. When I look back it all started from getting the infections and the pain has never gone away.
I'm not even sure what I'm asking advice wise. Is it too soon to expect full recovery from the fentons? Have others had localised pain on one side since birth?