I'm 20 weeks pg with DC2, and had a horrible birth with DC1 - 3 day labour, no pain relief until 3rd day, then pethidine made me hallucinate (and scream a lot, apparently - DH is still quite traumatised by it!), gas and air made me vomit but didn't touch the pain, 1st epidural failed, 2nd was brilliant, ended up with forceps, episiotomy, 2nd degree tear, and 9lb baby.
I am TERRIFIED about the birth this time around, and to make it worse, we don't have guaranteed childcare in place for DS, so I may need to go it alone (which is fine in itself, but I'm worried I'll be incoherent with the pain again and get a crap midwife and then be screwed!).
Anyway, I had a chat with a consultant last week, and she said I could ask for an early epidural, so request it at 4cm, and that could be my birth plan. she also said the forceps last time were because I was so exhausted after 3 days of contractions and 2 hours of pushing, that they had to get him out somehow, but this time she sees no reason why I can't push baby out without assistance, given that so far baby is smaller than DS was at the same stage, and also, I am obviously 'slacker' than I was last time (nice...)
Does anyone know whether an early epidural is actually ever granted? I was so delighted to be told it was a possibility that I cried (and could have hugged her!) but am now worrying that I'll get a different consultant who says 'no epidural, let's wait and see' and I'll be on my own and in pain and not able to demand it for myself. I do NOT want pethidine or gas and air if at all possible, and last time I broke the TENS machine by pressing on it too hard, so although will start with TENS, I want a second level of pain relief.
(I know it should be a shorter labour this time, but tbh I don't care, I still want the option of pain relief!)
thanks if you've read this waffle all the way!! :o