I can't believe I am so undecided, thought maybe some people might be able to help me think?
I'm nearly 14 weeks and my midwife has said I don't have to decide yet, It's my first pregnancy, and no complications so far. If anything comes up in the pregnancy I will be 100% happy to go to hospital if it's indicated.
I studied midwifery for a year, (stopped course for some personal reasons) and was involved in the delivery of several babies in lovely normal births and whilst I am no way involved with that training now, I do consider myself somewhat educated on matters, and able to do research and things myself.
I am quite confident in my bodies ability to give birth if that makes sense and want to move around, eat, and pretty much be left to get on with it, which I think would be easier at home. I'd like to only use gas and air. I am also ok with the thought that a any birth will not turn out any way the way I plan it, I have settled that with myself if that makes sense.
I live literally 5 minutes drive from the hospital.
My main worries with hospital birth is more that I may be excessively monitored more than at home, and this might restrict my moving and things, and I think I'd feel more comfortable in my home.
My main worries with home birth is I want to breastfeed and hear so many horror stories, and I wonder where I'd get the support if not in hospital.
Sorry if this doesn't make any sense, it doesn't make much sense in my head either.