Long story short.
I had an emcs 7 years ago with the borth of my twins.
Three years ago i had a vbac, and ended up with a 3rd degree tear. DD was 10lb 2oz and back to back. After being sewn back up, it was never checked again, although i now believe i should have been seen at a clinic etc. I did get an infection in it as it was healing, but that was controlled by AB's from my GP.
DS3 is 21 months and at the beginning of my pregnancy with him i suffered from urinary incontinence, also after he was born it became much much worse and i was seen in clinic, where they told me to do pelvic floor excerises, watch what i drank and sent me away. I had a 2nd degree tear with him and he was just short of 10lbs, btw.
I'm now 23 weeks with DC5, and am struggling lots with urinary incontinence. Since almost the beginning of my pregnancy, i've had to wear a tena pad which i need to change several times a day. If i laugh, cough, sneeze or even pick DS3 up, i leak.
It's extremely embarrasing and i feel so ashamed that i just can't stop it happening.
I'm wondering, if this baby is another 10lber, if i have a vbac, will it completely ruin my pelvic floor? I keep thinking i'm going to be left completly incontinent. Would an elective csec be better in this situation?
I can't really talk to my midwife - i have GD, and see them in clinic only and usually theres a tribe of Drs and Consultants there and i really don't want to iscuss it in front of everybody 
What would you do?