Just looking for some reassurance and non-hormonal common sense. I am booked for ELCS next Tuesday and I am petrified. I shouldn't be as this will be my 3rd CS (1 x emergency, 1 x elective) so I should know what to expect in all respects. I didn't have any particularly traumatic births to account for my irrational fear. The only thing I can put my finger on is that I don't want to die and leave my 2/3 children without a mummy. How am I going to say goodbye to them next Tuesday, just in case?