Early I know but it is really ruining what should be a happy time.

[nunnie]

I have had 2 children both of which landed me in theatre for 2 different reasons.

My DD was a very quick labour and realtively easy compared to what I expected. The placenta retained and I had to have a manual removal in theatre, which I personally found a horrible experience.

I got pregnant again, and spent most of it worrying about the same thing happening again and I requested if it did I be given a general as I didn't want to be awake as the memories of my previous had left me quite disturbed.

Anyway never got that far because after a quick start off and then 3.5 hours of pushing it was realised that DS was brow and not going to move and was becoming distressed so I was whisked away for a EMCS, dh wasn't even allowed in. Had my spinal was quite happy as the urge to push had gone and then when they made the insition I got a terrible pain and it then became apparent that the spinal hadn't worked and I was quickly knocked out.

While the latter took longer physically to recover from my 1st is the one that still after almost 4 years plays on my mind.

Anyway I have stupidly got pregnant again and I am currently 10 weeks pregnant. This is stupid because my DS is only 21 weeks old.

I am now worried as even if I opt for an ELCS the likelihood of me making it to the date is slim so a VB is probably what I am destined for.

My concerns are that I have increased my risk of a rupture because I haven't allowed the scar ample healing time. And I also have increased my chance of retained placenta because there is now more scar tissue for it to attatch to.

My labours are pretty quick, and so my concern is this time I might not even get to the hospital before I need to push, only made it with 5 minutes to spare with DS and 30 minutes with DD. All I can think is what if I rupture at home. My midwife kept saying I will be monitored throughout labour and asked over and over if I have any scar pain, this is all well and good if I get there in time, she also said 70% of VBAC are successful, which in all honesty isn't that high IMO and due to my stupidity I have increased my chance to be more likely in the 30%.

I know I am probably being irrational but I cant help it.

Should have said.

DD was 6 days early, and DS was 4 weeks early.

Wow, that's a difficult one. I understand a bit where you're coming from as I had an emcs with DD and recently had a successful vbac with DS. I think if I were you, I'd probably go for an ELCS as you're right that the short time between pg does make the risk of uterine scar rupture slightly higher. ELCS dates are always set before the due date but you'll need to speak to your consultant about when they might schedule it. It's imporatnat to remember that just becasue your first 2 were early, doesn't mean this one will be - 3rd babies are notoriously unpredictable. Congratulations and good luck with whatever you decide.

Sorry to hear you have had a couple of bad labours. Don't really know what to recommend, but try not to worry about it. Or at least postpone worrying about it for the next 20 weeks! Nothing is going to happen for a very long time, and hopefully by the time baby does arrive you'll have discussed all the options with your midwife and will feel a bit happier. And even if you go into labour prior to your ELCS date they will still CS you if that is what you are booked in for - they did with me.
Congratulations, and try (I know its hard with the hormones) and just forget about the labour for the next while