not one for those looking for positive stories turn away now! I know there are lots of VBAC threads on here but I've done a search and can't really find what i'm looking for - but if you can point me in the right direction please do!
this is long.....
I have an aptmt with my consultant on Monday, I assume it's to discuss birth plans (VBAC -i'm only 14/15 weeks now), and I've got a fair idea of what I want to ask but would like some help.
My situation with the 1st birth I had a booked induction at 40+14, and was given prostaglandin gel pessary. Midwife said baby did a big flip not long after I had the gel, and there were some concerns about heart traces for the first 30 mins or so. It seemed to settle so I was told to go for a walk and some lunch for a while. I came back and they said I'd need to have monitoring due to the blips earlier, to press a button when I felt any contractions and to press another one if I had any concerns on the baby's heart beat. So roughly 2 hours after I'd had the gel, I felt the faintest twinge of a contraction, and promptly the heartbeat disappeared totally. I pressed both buttons and within minutes a hoard of ppl were around the bed giving me a quick scan, something about cord round the neck, ceasarian now, sign here, rushed off to theatre, stripped, mask, injections, out. I came round and DD had arrived safe and well thank god. I was in bits, terrified, and in agony, drugged up mess for a good couple of days. Yuk. After they said they had just 15 mins to get her out and also it was a dry birth - my waters had gone - but I'd not noticed this. No-one made much of an issue about it then - could that have made a difference?
That was two years ago. So now I really want to avoid having a CS, but I don't know how I will, as I know induction is not a good idea after cs. My mum was 2 weeks late with both me and my sister, and was induced both times with us. Not with my brother but he was her 3rd and he was big.
I'm also worried about starting labour naturally and freaking that the same thing (fetal distress) will happen again. First time round I'd done a bit of hypnotherapy with a CD,and was hoping to stay at home as long as possible before going to hospital. I couldn't help thinking after if that'd happened DD wouldn't have made it, and it was only as I was in hospital she survived.
Where do I start with this dilema? I really don't want an ELCS, my partners keen on one, but I don't want to be reminded of before and I really don't want the horrible recovery with a newborn and toddler. Plus mad as I may sound I've always wanted to experience bith. I want a natural birth but I just can't see how it could be managed ok or what questions I need to ask.
hope that makes sense TIA