I am getting really panicky about my impending labour - I am now 37+3.
The background is that in my last labour I had quite a painful induction (although I could not say traumatic). I remember having a cervical sweep 48 hours before being induced and then having a really incompetent midwife attempting to put a pessary in (it took her about 15 minutes). I went into labour after this pessary (when they eventually left me alone for a few hours) and then 4 hours later because my waters hadn't broken I had an amniotomy, which I found really painful because the midwife took 4 attempts at it before succeeding. I asked for an epidural because the contractions were so strong and this came to 2 1/2 hours later. It all ended with an emergency c under GA (the epidural had not taken down one side of my body and it was thoroughly painful) due to decelerations, which I actually blame on the epidural.
The query I am having is how far down the intervention route to go this time. I initially wanted to just say if I can't have it entirely naturally I would like a c-section. However my mind is in turmoil because yesterday my consultant told me that sometimes when the waters don't break it is the only thing that slows the labour down and I should let them do it and it is not normally painful. I wonder how much of the "slow labour" syndrome though is hospital induced stress (which I am quite vulnerable too) and I much prefer the idea letting things take their course unless I actually need a CS. Also, because of what happened last time I don't want people touching me in that area unless they actually need too.
Basically, I can't decide on my birth plan whether I should let the hospital staff do minor interventions (like an amniotomy) or whether I should just say I want to go straight to c-section in the event of a problem.
What would you / did you do in this situation? I am really turning this round in my head.