Hi all please give me your honest opinion and thought about the following.
I am a 30 year old female, from south africa, single mom my boy is 4 and we live with my mom and dad. I have been unemployed for over a year now and I promise it's not that I am not looking for one. It is thanks to my mother, father and aunt that my boy has the opportunity to attend pre school. I lie awake at night stressing, worrying and fearing what the future holds for me I don't know how I am going to survive. My mental health is not what it should be mainly because of all the battle's I fight in my head, nobody is harder on me than me.
My boys father left us when my son was 2 years old, it left a sadness in my son that will never go away. That was also the cause of my son clinging on me refusing to let me go even if I constantly remind him he will see me later on. My son is really battling with separation anxiety.
(with me being fully aware of the circumstances)... I was contemplating on trying to get in at a recruiting agency that helps people find a job and place to life in the USA for a period of maby 9 Months, where I will save everything I possibly can , but the thing is I will have to do it for at least 3 or 4 years for it to have been worth while.
BUT I am not certain that it would be the best thing for my son, he is still young by the time he is 8 I will most probably be home. It my responsibility to look after, provide, protect, my boy.... how am I going to do that in a country that's busy going down fast there's no job opportunities, corruption is what drives this country. I don't see anything left of this country in 5 years. So I can stay here and find a way to survive or I can work overseas for 3 years come back with the money I saved, I will be able to provide for my son to care for him. I just don't want him to get even more hurt when I am gone, I don't want him to hate me for not being around.
What is your opinion?