My husband has life changing injuries following an accident. He’s not the same as he and after three years of rehab has been retired. We have three children who have been through alot from thinking they were going to lose their father and now one who is now emotionally distant and cognitively impaired with memory issues. My eldest child has taken the brunt of all this taking on the father figure and as a result is failing in school, has no friends and does not leave the house ( has had a lot of bullying from kids saying his dad isa vegetable). He is now struggling with anxiety and intrusive thoughts and I don’t know how to help. I have been doing okay throughout resilience wise though have had everything thrown at me. From fighting to get him through rehab and treatment, endless battling at medical appointments, constant new health issues, financial pressures and everything going wrong with house, car, family falling out with me. Two years down the line I feel like I’m crumbling, losing my temper all the time and crying and feel like running away. I don’t get a break from caring responsibilities (no family offer help) and work full time. I have lost it tonight and children are crying saying they need me to be happy. I am so worried about the impact on their mental health and also my separate worries about what life holds for me now. My lack of joy and unhappiness is seeping into all of our lives like a poison. But there is no way out. What can I do to build my resilience back up? How can I protect my kids from all the unhappiness and instability? Any comments or thoughts are much appreciated. I feel like all the years of good parenting and bringing them up in a happy stable environment have been for nothing. How do I get myself and us back on track.?