I'm feeling so down and I just want to cry.
My mother is not the easiest person to live with. Both myself and my brothers just cannot tolerate her habits, snide remarks and judgemental comments. She also loves to body shame my daughters but will glorify my son who's tall, slim and handsome.
She's recently been discharged from hospital after a very bad fall. One of my brothers who live far away from me cannot have her in his home due to difficulties with his wife. My other brother won't take care of her due his wife not getting along. So it's fallen on me to take care of her. She cannot live alone until she's fully healed.
You may remember from my previous post that I'm being evicted, my house is full of boxes, summer holidays is over, I've not done anything with the kids and I'm back to work next Monday. I just feel like crap because I cannot be myself whilst mum is in my home watching and commenting on everything we do or don't. It's got to the stage where my kids won't sit and watch TV with her cos nothing is suitable. She'd want the TV on 24/7 and nobody wants to sit with her. We're all in our rooms, avoiding her and I feel so bad saying this. I'm not claiming any sort of benefit for her.
I dread to come back from work, tired and worn out but cannot relax or do things my way as I have to consider her feelings. I'm just feeling sooo lost overwhelmed and just pissed off with everything.
I feel so bitchy for feeling like this. I'm skint, summer's over, kids back into a routine but I just feel robbed.