I guess I'm posting here because I feel quite abandoned. My mum is now under palliative care team. It's been hard. I'm an only child. No Dad. I'm bereft but focusing on giving her the most support I can and putting in care so that she can be at home and I can be with her as much as possible. My husband isn't being very nice, he has told me off a lot for making him feel irrelevant because my attention is directed elsewhere. He's not really talking to me tonight. Says he's stressed with work and tired, very angry. Says it's not me but just that work is hard for him at the moment but the hostility is so hard to deal with when I'm feeling so sad and stressed and lonely. He wouldn't say goodnight. I'm on the sofa so he can get a good night's rest.
I'm trying to be strong for everyone. I think I'm doing a good job of coping. People I work with are kind and my boss is being so supportive and giving me time off.
I'm so sad and I just want my mum to be ok but she's not. I'm trying to come to terms with losing her but it's so hard. I'm exhausted from travelling a long way to the hospital every day and dealing with all the end of life admin. I'm keeping everything together for the children and for my mum but I thought my husband might have been kinder to me. Well hoped I guess. He makes things harder and I don't know why. I've supported him through so much as always been the emotionally strong one. I get that he is struggling with the situation and will be finding my vulnerability hard. But I can't understand why he would be so cruel.