Cancer Support Thread 97: support for those diagnosed and going through treatment

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Cancer support thread 97: support for those newly diagnosed and /or undergoing treatment…..
Thread 96 is pretty full - here’s a new one

I'm pleased your feet remain untouched @cannaecookrisotto

I think one's ancestral seat doesn't have to be grand or historic, it just has to be loved and provide stability. It's great that both you and @ForestFlowerFairy have these in your lives.

No ancestral home for family Ventress. My sister and I are currently in the process of moving our parents closer to her. They decided to move following her BC diagnosis a year ago and I am doing all of the work and admin (as they have both abdicated all responsibility for life). They are in a short chain now and are hoping to move before Christmas. It has been very difficult keeping them on track and positive to move following my diagnosis. At least weekly they want to pull out as "it's all too much for you". Well, no it's not. What is difficult is trying to keep any hint of real life from invading your lives. Grrr. Sorry, quick vent there.

I'm glad you have managed to get the pain under control @ForestFlowerFairy and eat some toast. Three more weeks to countdown. The "has it worked" is the ultimate question isn't it? We are all going through our different treatments in the hope that at the end our oncologists tell us that we are cancer free, or at least in remission, and can start on the next stage of our treatments .

The next step after chemo for me is anti hormone therapy.

I agree @PatsFishTank - being an in patient gives you that confidence that you are being looked after and monitored 24/7. A nurse is never more than a few metres away and they will be taking regular observations.

Ah there's me not reading properly @Ventress it is of course @cannaecookrisotto

I do hope we can adapt our home for multi generation living, the last owners added a weird extension to the side with 2 box rooms and a tiny bathroom, It was ideal for the kids as teens as it's at the opposite side to the other bedrooms so they could climb in and out the windows without waking us up and could make as much noise as their hearts desired, now it's a perfect bolt hole for guests, one is set as an office the other as a bedroom and I guess in time the office could be adapted for a snug if we ever need a parent to move in.
I'd like more living space but to go up and create a mezzanine would mean lifting the whole roof, quotes average £100k which seems crazy but who knows what may happen when parents may need to move in if the kids move back or we even need space for grandchildren.
I keep telling myself all these things that can happen and how we can plan to make sure I'm visualising myself right in the middle of it all.
Usually I like my home and my space to be very private but now I want to bring everyone in, if nothing else this experience has shown me who is important to me.

I have no idea how you're coordinating a house sale alongside all this @Ventress that's truly bonkers. My Mum is mid move, due to complete 2 days after my treatment ends, giving her just 4 days between travelling to me this week for lifts and then her moving after. It all sounds so stressful and her buyer is an idiot, tried demanding the trees behind her garden were removed prior to them completing...the trees on a public footpath 🤣

You're welcome to vent, you're doing a house move without the actual excitement of a new house at the end!!

@PatsFishTank
I’m so sorry you’re joining us here and your recent diagnosis. You’ll find a lot of support on this thread, we all know too well the feelings you’re going through.

It sounds like they’re moving super quickly getting you admitted and starting tests and treatment 🙏. Mine was a shock diagnosis as well (TN Breast Cancer), they told me it was a cyst until biopsy came back then it was like SURPRISE!

It does feel like a grenade going off in your life doesn’t it. This period now of waiting for full tests and waiting for treatment to start is so mentally challenging, the what ifs and the unknowns. I promise, once you get the full picture and they start treating you, your feet will start to touch the ground a little bit.

Just remember, they’ll be aiming to treat you with the intention of getting you cured. Sounds like they’ve caught it early before you started showing symptoms, amen for the routine blood test bringing it to light!

How old are you? And your children? Tell us a bit about you if you’re comfortable sharing ❤️.

I’m 34, diagnosed 1st September, stage 3 triple negative BC (an extra spicy type just because that’s typical of me). 2 girls, 8yr old and a 6 month old. 2 cats, a bearded dragon and a manchild DH.

This place is amazing for venting your fears, rage, worries and getting out all the stuff you feel like you can’t say out loud to loved ones. We’re all here for you ❤️.

I’m coming back for the other updates and my usual war and peace essay once DH stops trying to delegate his baby duties to me the annoying pig. Trying to sit on my ass and do nothing and he’s wafting her near me. I need 10 minutes to myself man go away!

@FcukBreastCancer
I did wonder who had been kicking your drain in the night 😂. Thought you must really hate that bastard thing if you’ve resorted to giving it a good kicking. When will it eventually come out? Fingers crossed it’s sooner rather than later for you. Yes it could be worse but nowt wrong with a good old moan about it either, it’s shit. Nobody wants drains attached to them so feel free to moan to us. Shit pipe - this made me laugh, for a moment I thought you had a dodgy shit pipe as well and then wondered if you meant you were constipated or something hahaha Glad your temp is ok, keep an eye on it just in case.

@ForestFlowerFairy
You’re an amazing lady, you’ve been through so much in such a short space of time and that you’re still even functioning is incredible. You’d have to drag me out from under my bed in protest. Sorry to hear about your cousin. I have wondered about addiction when I’ve been chewing through my stash but then buried my head in the sand like the ostrich I am sometimes 🫣. You’ve got more willpower than I!

Radio - are you weekly? You’ve likely told me before but my brain is shit at the moment. The scans between are the worst aren’t they? I’ve got to have a mid-way scan between this treatment and the next and I’m absolutely shitting in my pants.

Your dad sounds a bit 🤏 mental, your cancer isn’t that bad?! I’m sorry you even had to have that conversation. Was he perhaps trying to make himself feel better? I don’t know.

I’ve had plenty of “ah breast cancer is so curable now”. And I just can’t be arsed explaining anymore that I don’t have the garden variety type. Yes it’s treatable but if it doesn’t work then there’s not many other options for this one. No targeted therapies. Fortunately the new regime I’m on has a great success rate but it’s not a guarantee, but people don’t want to hear that. They want me to stick a big smile on and be little miss positive. It’s so hard.

TBF, I’d quite like to be buried in your garden as well 😂. Might pop it in my will “bury me in Forests garden”. My family would be reading it confused but I’d be laughing my ass off from t’other side.

@Ventress
I’m impressed you’ve got the headspace to coordinate a house move, I can barely coordinate myself to the kitchen!! Don’t be saying sorry for venting, this is the place. I’ll bring some very posh plates next time and we can chuck them at the wall together!

Which anti-hormone therapy are they putting you on? How many chemo weeks left have you got?

@cantbelieveIamhere
How are you holding up? What have you done this weekend?

@DanFmDorking
Were you happy with the score today or pissed off??? :)

@cannaecookrisotto - Sorry for late reply – I’m jolly pleased! - I’m an Arsenal fan so I really didn’t want Liverpool to win – 1-2 was a good result with a late goal that made it thrilling – hope you enjoyed the game - (I had roast chicken.)

@ForestFlowerFairy - You’re going through a lot – I hope things are better for you today.

@cantbelieveIamhere – how’s the wastepipe!

@PatsFishTank – welcome to the crazy world of Chemo – sorry you’re havin’ a tough time.

@Ventress – er, may I say, don’t get too involved in moving someone else – make a point of lookin’ after yourself.

Remember peeps - Chemotherapy would be so much more rewarding if Cancer screamed whilst you were destroying it 😜

@cannaecookrisotto drain hopefully out today, but it depends on how effective it was over 24 hours. I feel a bit better as I took some dressings off that were irritating my skin.

My personal shit pipe was rather blocked up after the drugs. I only had the fentanyl in theatre, but that was enough. Not touched the codeine they gave me, haven't needed it.

I've decided I'm washing my hair today, drain or no drain. I will find a way!

@PatsFishTank I hope you managed some sleep. I also had a shock diagnosis as I'd been told it wasn't going to be cancer and went to the appointment rather relaxed and alone. I'm 47 with 2 kids, aged 9 and 12. I dont know my stage yet till surgery results. I have a cancer type that doesn't show on mammograms so I've had every other scan and test. I had to stop contraceptive immediately and so been feeling like a sudden menopause.

Morning fellow club members. I hope you all slept well.

Thank you for allowing me to vent. I wasn't feeling great yesterday - another head cold, achy and lack of sleep. I'm still feeling grotty today so I've called in sick to work, DH insisted. A "duvet day" for me.

I hope your mum's move goes well @ForestFlowerFairy. Having one annoying idiot in a chain seems to be some unwritten law unfortunately. Has she exchanged contracts? Hopefully completion will be smooth and easy. Fingers crossed.

Your house sounds very suited to multi-generational living. Lifting the roof sounds prohibitively expensive. Would an extension or annex be an easier/cheaper option? We can't do anything to our house without a world of pain and expense as it's G2 listed. When we bought it ten years ago there was a wodge of council paperwork an inch thick just about getting listed building consent to change the front door! Goodness knows how stressful and difficult (impossible?) an extension would be to get permission for. Luckily the house is big enough for the three of us and, unless DS turns into a latter day Captain von Trapp and has 8 children we should be okay for space

I understand what you are saying @DanFmDorking , and thank you for thinking of me. I really want this move to happen though. When we started the process in the Spring I was fit and well and it was my sister who was going through cancer treatment. She is now in recovery and between the two of us we can deal with this. It'll make life much easier for everyone, particularly my sister, to have our parents closer. Their new place is about 10 minutes drive from my sister's house, so it's close but not too close. In fact, the solicitor has emailed the sale contract this morning and the purchase contract should follow soon. Good progress.

My dad is an Arsenal supporter (a north London lad by birth) so enjoyed this weekend's football results too.

"Remember peeps - Chemotherapy would be so much more rewarding if Cancer screamed whilst you were destroying it" very wise @DanFmDorking!

I hope the drain comes out today @FcukBreastCancer and that all backups and blockages are freed up.

"I’ve had plenty of “ah breast cancer is so curable now”.... They want me to stick a big smile on and be little miss positive. It’s so hard."

I've paraphrased you but I completely agree with @cannaecookrisotto . This is the reaction I've had from people I've told and I totally understand why.

I'm up for some plate throwing! DS has already destroyed the pasta bowls and DH the glasses, so I should get to trash the plates!

The line i keep hearing is 'at least you caught it early' when i know I have infact ignored the bastard lump for longer than I'll admit too.

I know friends mean well, but these situations really do show the ones who step up. Drinking a lovely herbal tea right now that came in a beautiful care package from one superstar. The ones that offer to have the kids before I even ask. I dont have family help so it means a lot.

Waiting impatiently for nurses to come.

Hope you all have a good Monday.
@ventress I hope you can take a few more days off to rest.

@cannaecookrisotto daily radiotherapy - well, Monday to Friday with chemo on Wednesdays.
I get Saturday and Sunday off!
My Mum is up this week and I've found it very therapeutic telling her all the ridiculous things my Dad said, but she did tell me off for not kicking him out and calling her!

@Ventress she exchanged today, big celebrations, and by big celebrations I waved my little morphine syringe and managed a yay. I think I've got some wine in a can I can serve her later so cheers. I'll have some milk 🤣

@FcukBreastCancer I feel you on the personal shit pipe, all the drugs have played havoc - I got to a stage where I 'couldn't trust a fart' which took a good week to settle down.

I do hope the hair washing goes well and the drain is sorted?

And YES YES YES to everyone who has been told at least it's curable and they've caught it early. I bloody hate that.
Yes, we did catch it early
Yes, for many it's curable
But I'm still absolutely shitting myself - I'm 39, this cancer normally effects men in their 50s so I in no way feel lucky, or fortunate or in anyway hopeful and right now I don't want any fucking sunshine or cheer up bollocks.
The whole point of odds is that for some people and I sincerely hope absolutely none of us here, but for some the odds are crap, they are unlucky and this is a bastard. Telling us otherwise doesn't change any of it or minimise the damn side effects of the treatment.

Perhaps we need a list of rules, things like:
'hold my kids whilst I nap, I don't need you to hold my hand'
'shove you're positivity and motivational crap'
'bring laxatives '

Personally I get to the stage where I employ the “silent fuck off”. I know people are only trying to help and don’t deserve it but arrrrrgh. Breast cancer month is particularly triggering for me 🙄. I guess they’re better than the so-called friends who’ve faded into the ether.

@DanFmDorking
I’m chuffed you got the score you wanted 👏🏼. Roast chicken sounds marvellous, I actually ended up with beef stew on Sunday which is a win (especially as I didn’t have to cook it!).

Funny you should say that about chemo screaming - I get burning pains the days after treatment and as my lump is shrinking, I like to think of these pains as the dying throes of twat lump 😂.

@FcukBreastCancer
Yay for drains out! Did they come out? 🤞
The drugs do mess with our shit pipes don’t they, I’ve been a bit less regular as of late and it annoys me. Been trialling porridge before I resort to Dulcolax as it gives me tummy ache.

My treatment has put me into chemical menopause and I now know what my poor mother is talking about when she’s complaining of these “hot flushes”. I wake up in the night soaked in sweat like wtf.

@Ventress
Sorry to hear you’re feeling grotty today and I’m with your DH, duvet day is the only way! I did half a days work today then got on my couch and had my own duvet afternoon with no kids (at childminders and school). I hope you feel better tomorrow ❤️.

Someone should take one for the team and go to IKEA to buy a shit load of plates for us to trash. I can’t go to IKEA. I’ll have a nervous breakdown simply walking through the door 😂.

@ForestFlowerFairy
Daily radio sounds tough going but at least it’s getting it over and done with rather than dragging it out. I hope mines all condensed daily and not weekly. I’ll ask my BCN how it will work on Wednesday.

I bet it’s been like a therapy session offloading to your mum, I bet her eyes were rolling into her head at what your dad has been saying!!

@dancingwhilstfacingthemusic
Agree regarding breast cancer month completely, the amount of fucking people sending me shit like “wearing this on 24th for you” and I just don’t want to know. I have enough Breast Cancer without an entire bastard month dedicated to it. I know they mean well I really do, but just please stop. I donated to a children’s cancer charity this month instead of to BC. I know that sounds weird but I felt like it was what I wanted to do.

All the “you’ve caught it early” and “it’s curable”, like you’ve all said here, I completely agree. I too am absolutely shitting myself, I spend a significant portion of my time worrying about the cancer spreading, I get a twinge in my back and my first thought is “bones”. People just don’t understand the fear do they and the anxiety that comes with scans, results and any ache or pain. I’m quite good at talking myself round and rationalising sometimes but other times I want to crawl under my bed and stay there.

The list of rules sounds good, the “bring laxatives” made me laugh out loud 😂. I’m going to add that to the family WhatsApp of sparkly unicorn hatred pinned rules.

Drain is out, hair is washed. I may have had wine to celebrate.

Did a little walk but was a bit sore

I say all this and my DH is the absolute worst for it. He cannot even comprehend any other outcome than “complete pathological response” to treatment. I’ve tried to explain that not everyone achieves this and talk to him about being scared and worried. But his stock response is “that’s not going to happen. You’re going to be fine. You’re going to beat this”.

I fully get it but I do think he’s in a bit of denial. I want to scream sometimes because I also just want to vent my fears and he shuts that down because HE’S scared of listening to what I have to say.

On the whole I am quite positive, I’m a glass half full type of person but this is a whole new ball game. I got my Citalopram increased from 20mg to 30mg at the end of last week to try and help with those intrusive thoughts. Then I feel a bit daft because I AM treatable and I feel like I’m being ridiculous when I should be grateful they’re aiming to cure.

I’m sorry for ranting on and feeling sorry for myself and I’m going to shut up now ❤️.

@FcukBreastCancer
Amen for the drain out and hair wash! Bet you feel all free and clean! No more kicking drains woohoo!

As a newbie in this world it's good to hear other people are bothered by the your odds are good/you're strong/you'll beat it/be positive/ comments. It's still very early days for me and I'm waiting to find out how it's effecting my body but I'm already finding these comments difficult.

My Dad and Grandpa both died from AML. It's an aggressive cancer. All I can do is focus on my particular case, get my head down and try and survive. I don't actually want to know the overall odds because I only really care about my case. My life went to shit less than two weeks ago. There isn't really any more to be said at this point.

@cannaecookrisotto thanks for your welcome. I'm 55 (Acute Myeloid Leukaemia is most common in over 65s so fairly young for this cancer) and generally fit which I'm hoping will help.

I've got a DH and three DC age 22, 20 and 19. The two younger ones are at home, the oldest at uni in Manchester. I live in the Lakes and have been referred to a more specialist hospital 1h 20m drive from home which makes visiting a pain. We've got an elderly dog who doesn't like being on her own and I usually work from home so now I'm in hospital full time, dog sitting needs to be factored in for the rest of the family. I'm lucky the kids aren't young and we don't childcare because DH works shifts and unsociable hours.

My family and friends are being amazing and I'm really grateful to have them.

Yay for exchange @ForestFlowerFairy. I hope your mum enjoyed her wine. I think @cannaecookrisottohas said everything I wanted to say about your dad so I’ll say no more.

i don’t do Facebook or instagram. I’m just not a social person. I wouldn’t be able to bear the sort of support bollocks that people post. I agree with all of you - people mean well, but I wish they would just do one. We’re here, we’re fighting the bastard cancer, just send chocolate (and laxatives) and in my case a wig!

My friend crocheted me a bobble hat and posted it to me with a large bar of dairy milk. No note. That’s a bloody good friend!

I’m very potty mouth this morning. Apologies. I will donate to charity swear box when I get to the hospital later. I have my bone density scan today. I hope I don’t sneeze on the scanner.

That’s quite a trek to hospital @PatsFishTankI hope you’ve settled in and have a good spot on the ward. I’m at the other end of the country in Berkshire. I’m almost 50 and have an almost 18 year old son. And secondary breast cancer of course.

Oh god, me too @cannaecookrisotto. I’m an absolute mess most of the time. But then I go insane and start thinking well at least I won’t get dementia and wondering whether to cash in my pension and buy a motorhome. WTAF?!

I haven’t tagged everyone as I’m on bastard phone but I have read your posts. I’ll catch up properly later once I’m home from hospital.

@PatsFishTank
Yep, I try and tell myself that people mean well but it still makes me want to headbutt a wall.
I agree with you, focus on you and don’t go down the rabbit hole of Google and statistics and such bollocks. I was panicking about mine to the oncologist (in a “why did I have to get this extra spicy version” type moan) and her response was about how statistics are out of date, but then interestingly she said “you. You are your own statistic. Your cancer could have the worst prognosis stats but that doesn’t mean they are YOUR statistics. Every person is different and lots of factors such as age etc make a difference”.

And she’s bloody right ❤️. You’re fit, you’re younger than the average person diagnosed with AML, fuck to Google and its statistics!

I live in Manchester, I’m being treated at the Christies. What’s your youngest studying?
The Lakes are beautiful, my dad has a static over there and it’s one of my favourite places.

It’s all a bit “fuck” isn’t it when it kicks off, emotionally but also logistically because we have to rearrange our lives, we have no choice but also doing it under extreme pressure. I’m really lucky to have a brilliant childminder (whose also a family
member). My DD8 has been going since she was 9 months old so it certainly made it easier handing in my 6 months old a bit sooner than I’d have liked to. But I have to carry on working as well so she’s currently doing 3 days a week in childcare 😱. But needs must. I need treatment and I have to pay the bills too so the show must go on.

So glad your family and friends are being supportive and amazing, it makes it so much easier. Mine are fab too, I’ve got a family WhatsApp to post updates as I was struggling with all the messages.

When are you starting treatment? We’re all here with you along the way xx.

@Ventress
I only have FB and that’s bad enough. The algorithms have changed from cat videos to all things cancer related so I’ve had to take a step back from it. I’ve not posted anything about myself or my situation. The people I care about closest to me know and I’m fine with that. I don’t need all the head pats and sympathy, would drive me mad. Also Breast cancer awareness month is really annoying me.

Your friend sounds ace!!! That’s a great present!

No need to apologise for potty mouth, I’m terrible for it but fuck it. My swear jar would have exploded by now 😂. Hope the density bone scan goes well and you’ve refrained from sneezing snot all over it.

Ventress. Cash in the pension and buy the motorhome ❤️. I love the thought of you motorhoming around like Max and Paddy 😂. I’m fully voting for this!

Forgot to post about my updates (not that they’re exciting but tradition now!). Here’s my rant for the evening:

I spoke to my “buddy” today from Breast Cancer Now’s “Someone Like Me” service. It was the second call with her. They basically pair you up with someone who’s worn the T-shirt but had a very similar diagnosis. So I have a lovely lady who was diagnosed early 30s, triple negative, massive tumour (9cm like mine), stage 3 and also had 2 young children. She’s 59 now.

I was a bit sceptical about doing it at first but it’s really good. They just listen to you and relate with your particular treatment, type, give advice and have a chat. Is there anything like this for other cancer types? For BC ladies, I highly recommend.

Also, I feel bad about moaning about breast cancer awareness month on here. It struck me after I posted it that not all cancers get the same level of awareness and publicity as BC, and as a result of all the awareness thus comes funding for research etc. And it’s that research that has led to much better treatment options for triple negative when 5 years ago even id have been scuppered. So I’m effectively whinging about something that is helping to save my bloody life.

I also wish there were dedicated awareness months for other types of cancers for the same reasons. I’ve decided that once I’m out the other end of this shit show, I’m going to raise money for a different type of cancer each year. So one year lung, next year stomach, pancreas and so on. In the grand scheme of things it won’t make much of a difference but change has to start somewhere. And it will give me something to focus my energy on instead of imagining a reoccurrence every 4.6 minutes of the day.

I can’t stop eating. I’m eating anything and everything in sight. It must be the Dex. Tonight I ate McDonald’s (I hate loving it), I had x2 double cheeseburgers, large fries and a McFlurry followed by a bowl of porridge… wtf?

Now I’m in bed eyeballing a packet of shortbread fingers on DHs bedside table. I need one of those electric shock collars that zaps me whenever I put something near my mouth.

sorry - one more-
@cantbelieveIamhere
How are you doing? Not heard from you for a bit so I’m just checking in to see how you are x

@Ventress - fair enough - don't exhaust yourself though - your dad will be happy today - Arsenal 4-0 Atletico Madrid Oh yes!!

@cannaecookrisotto - yep - my Sunday roast is my weekly treat

Hope this week is going smoothly peeps.

@cannaecookrisotto eldest DC is studying film making. Started at MMU but didn't like the curriculum in the 2nd year and switched to Manchester Film School. He's very committed and serms to be good at it but it's a very difficult industry to get started in. If I need a bone marrow transplant I'll have to go to Christies as they can't do it in Blackpool.

I had a reasonably optimistic conversation with my consultant yesterday. The type of AML I've got can be tracked more easily than others so they can tell if chemo is working more easily.

I also got moved into my own room last night which has made a huge difference. My own shower room, TV and place to have visitors and make phone calls. DH is bringing a few home comforts when he visits later. I may as well settle in - I'm going to be here a long time.

Your "Someone like me" buddy sounds great @cannaecookrisotto. Really good to have someone one the other side who can relate to what you are going through and just chat with no pressure.

Are you taking steroids daily? I'm only on Dex as part of my chemo pre-med now but I can certainly relate to the hunger. By the time I get home from the hospital after chemo I'm ready to eat the entire contents of the fridge (if DS has left anything, which is often doubtful).

Hope radiotherapy was okay yesterday @ForestFlowerFairy

Well done Arsenal! I don't really follow football anymore as neither DS or DH are fans but that will have made dad a happy little Gooner. I hope you are enjoying your quiet week @DanFmDorking and counting down to final chemo. What's next for you? I am hoping that this Sunday I will be in a nice Cornish pub with a traditional roast. You've made me hanker after one.

Your update sounds positive @PatsFishTank . Definitely bring in the home comforts. I found my iPad and ear phones really useful - I could log into Netflix or iPlayer and pass the time or listen to pod casts. You have a private room so perhaps it'll be less necessary for you but I also found an eye mask and ear plugs very helpful at night.

A film student - cool. Best of luck to him. A hard industry to get into but really rewarding I'm sure. My son is in the process of applying to universities now so we spent June and July tramping around various universities doing Open Days. I'm very glad we did the summer ones as I wouldn't have had the lung capacity to do the Autumn ones.

Glad you are drain free and (hopefully) unblocked @FcukBreastCancer. What's next for you once you have recovered?

Seconding @cannaecookrisotto 's check in @cantbelieveIamhere - hope all is well with you.

The bone density scan was horrible! I had a coughing fit (an occupational hazard with lymphangitis as my lungs are clogged up) half way through the first scan which was of my main torso and legs. Luckily it didn't start until the scanner was down to my pelvis so I had to try and ride it out and not move but it was really tough.

The second scan was head, neck and upper body and that was AWFUL .My arms were pinned to my sides (you are sort of wrapped in a blanket). I just kept panicking when the scanner got close to my face. Upshot was the 15 minute scan took about 30 minutes and I ended up with a big bolster cushion on my chest to stop the scanner's sensor coming right down onto me. The technician was lovely but I'm sure I've gone onto his "problem customer" list. Really would have liked a glass of wine last night! But I console myself that it probably would have tasted of manure anyway so I wasn't missing anything.

Pre-chemo blood test for me today so back to the hospital in half an hour...

Hope you all have a good day

@cannaecookrisotto I'm really glad you had a good appetite for your cheeseburgers. That's a good load of nutrition for you.

@Ventress sorry to hear about the scan. I'm not great with those type either it feels claustrophobic.

I'm off to cinema this morning. Mainly planned to avoid my cleaner. He's lovely but makes a bit of a fuss sometimes. Fil told him of my diagnosis last week (apologetically) as he cleans for him also.
Will report back if I Swear is worth seeing. Going to Everyman so it's quite swanky as cinemas go.