Breast Cancer

[Tiredandtiredagain]

Ok, I’m feeling sorry for myself tonight.

Diagnosed with stage 1, grade 3 breast cancer, end of last year.

Lumpectony
Four rounds of two weekly chemo

Just started 12 weeks paxi and carbo chemo (three weekly cycles, double week one, then single, single).

Tonight, it my lowest spot since this started. I’m so tired, but can’t sleep, I’ve have dreadful diarrhoea, but that has eased. I ache, I don’t know what to do with myself.

Ive hardly cried since this whirlwind took over me, I need to sob and I can’t.

I’ve got radiation after this.

Sorry, just need a handhold tonight.

I’ll get through this, but god this bit is tough!

Giving you a hand hold here. My lovely mum lived for over 20 years after her diagnosis of breast cancer. Wishing you all the best x

And a very healthy life too

Thank you.

Tonight is just a tough one, thank you for kind words.

I wish I could sleep.

It’s shit isn’t it! You will get through it though - I used to just tick things off one treatment at a time. I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Inflammatory Breast Cancer in 2019 which is particularly rare and aggressive - a real DO NOT GOOGLE cancer. Lots of treatment which I thankfully reacted well too and my oncologist (who I still see yearly) told me recently “well you won’t die of breast cancer”. There are some great supportive threads on here under the General Health section, especially good for support in the middle of the night or when things are getting you down, best of luck.

So sorry you feel
so bad tonight. Hope you got some sleep. Sending hugs and flowers 💐💐

Thank you, I managed to dose off and on during the night. I’ll head over to general heath and I won’t google!

X

Thank you xx

A bad night, hopefully I’ll have a better day xx

Sending good wishes and wishing you strength and peace for the rest of your treatment

I'm sorry you're struggling.

This is the general cancer support thread a pp mentioned:

https://www.mumsnet.com/talk/general_health/5219604-cancer-support-thread-96-its-nearly-christmas-get-the-sprouts-on

Thank you so much for this

I feel a bit brighter today, thank you.

Its the middle of the night fear I think.

Glad you’re a little brighter. I’ve just finished 16 rounds of chemo after 3 ops to get margins on my breast cancer. It’s rubbish but I’m now 12 weeks on and starting to pick up on life again.

come natter and hand hold on this lovely thread too:

www.mumsnet.com/talk/cancer/5311885-likely-breast-cancer-after-ultrasound-thread-2?page=17&reply=144793954

Here for you, you are not alone, Jesus loves you and He will never leave you🩷 Sending prayers and love, here if you need some company 🩷🩷🩷

I’m also having 18 rounds, very similar! I’ll head over there.

Sorry 16’rounds

It’s relentless enough to feel like way more! Just keep going.

I have my breast clinic appointment Monday following my first mammogram. I have an awful tendency to catastrophise and now feel without doubt my left side including near armpit feels different to my right . I also remember the expression of the mammogram nurse who said goodbye to me, like she knew?! I have plans for holidays in Italy in a few weeks and Greece in September, and acutely aware Monday afternoon my whole life could be changed. Worried about my little dog who is my world. Sorry I realise I have not had any outcome yet, but have a string gut feeling.

Come chat to us on the breast cancer anxiety thread (linked above), @Peachslice I really hope you can keep distracted this weekend and do not google please.