A little back story, my whole life iv been tiered, sleeping and depressed, i had a Child and sometimes had no energy to even be a Mother everyday, me and his Father split up due to dv and now hes in jail.
A few months prior to his attack i was sleeping on my sofá and i heard a voice tell me someone is doing magic on me, my first thought i knew was his family, as they are very cunning and pakistanà with thick roots , they love readi g things with peoples name attached. Anyway fast forward 3 months , fathers arrested for attacking me and now iv convinced myself i have PC.
Prior to this iv had grief, bouts of crying, nausia, presistant indijestion and a feeling in the middle of my pacreas. Esther this is real or magic i dont know.
I had the most scariest Dreams that my ex hisband was standing next to me as i passed away the DREAM WAS SO REAL I COULDNT EVEN BLINK THE WHOLE DAY. I heard a voice say magic as i woke up. The Dreams showed my time of death Would allways be related to magic, my soul wasnt leaving my body as i had to forgive him.
Anyway every Day im waking up with miles anxiety, depression and a feeling in my stomach. I went to ultrausound and nothing come up.
Im not getting Any other syptoms rather then a Sinky gnawing feeling in my pancreas like something churning incide of me
I do believe in magic and after knowing him family i believe they have been doing something that didnt help.
But after i got attacked i went abroad and ate so many sugar things its completley not like me. Bowls and bowls of sugar.
I cant believe i done that.
I used to smoke alot and didnt take care of my self while in that relationship. Iv changed everything around now. Im fasting eating fruites changed my diet. I feel so guilty for my son.
I lost all my family to cancer and death if something happens to me my son Will go into foster care. Im crying every Day i dont know why ? Its like a spell no joke. And i Would never normally write about this. But i had to release everything. I Just feel so alone and scared. I have no one i can talk to. I dont want to go i know its not my time.
I knew it was magic when i started freaking out crying out of no where and i felt my soul explode open. Some one did that to me i Just know it .