Scared I may have cancer, waiting for biopsy

[Sunflowersandchocolate]

I have changed usernames as I've spoken about this to some family and friends.

I just feel sick with worry, absolutely terrified I have cervical cancer.
I've had abnormal changes on every smear test (done yearly) since around 2018. I've also had HPV for that long at least.
I had a biopsy done 2 years ago which came back okay and I was moved back to 3 yearly screenings, which concerned me as things can progress rapidly and 3 years is a long time.

Ive been having red/brown discharge and intermittent bleeding for over two weeks now, I went to the doctor on day 1 as I don't have periods (depo provera).
Given my history I was given a smear test there and then and the doctor rang me back two days later and put me on an urgent cancer referral pathway.
Inflamed cervix and more changes.
I have a colospapy (I may have spelt that incorrectly) and biopsy this coming week.

My mum had cervical cancer at 29.
I'm in my early 30s and have a toddler.
I'm so, so scared she'll lose her mummy.
I'm not even scared for me, I'm scared for how heartbroken she'll be if anything happens to me, she's my shadow.

I know I'm jumping the gun and I need to wait and see what happens.
But I've already started thinking about how my life insurance and pension should be used to secure her future.

I don't know why I'm posting really, to let these thoughts out somewhere I guess.
I'm also wondering if anyone had anything similar and it wasn't cancer but something more innocent?

Thank you for reading

Just wanted to send a hand hold
I can totally understand why you are so frightened and nothing I can say will stop that fear but I just wanted to respond after I read your post xx

Hand hold. Take comfort that this waiting time is the worst time. You are on the right pathway to be seen by the right people who will do the right thing fast.
If the discharge is constant it could well be hormonal. Don't catastrophise and for gods sake don't Google at 3am.
Lots of love.

Thank you
Google hasn't been my friend so far,.
Thankfully work and being mum is making the time go relatively fast whilst waiting for my appointment.

Sorry to hear about your worries. It is so hard not to catastrophise when you have this looming over you. I have really bad health anxiety and always think the worst about any symptom.
I would say to say to just try and relax until you get the results, but I know from my point of view how difficult that is.
I recently had an urgent referral to the breast clinic due to a lump in my breast, which turned out to be fine. I know it's not the same, but I had convinced myself it was the worst case scenario, and it wasn't. I really hope you get the results back very soon.

How arw you were u ok after

Hello Beya

Thank you for asking!
I had an examination at the hospital, the male gynae said everything was fine, no need to do a biopsy.
He made me feel a bit silly if i'm completely honest, and downplayed my concerns.
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I moved to a new Dr's surgery a few months ago and was recently sent a letter stating I was due a smear test. I booked it in and went along, strangely the nurse could see that I had been referred to hospital last year, and then could see the case had been closed, but could not see any details of my appointment or any subsequent notes.
All very strange and I'm now waiting on the results of that routine smear test.

Thankfully symptoms stopped soon after the hospital appt last year, so hopefully everything with be okay this time around.

If you've found this thread can I assume you have concerns of your own?

Thankyou for updating its great to hear good results...

Yes ive been hpv positive for 5 years myself...
Started 5 years ago with abnormal smear had a leetz camt bk cin 1...

6 months later smear came bk worse another leetz cin 1 and 2 ...6 months after that hov positive no abnormal cells colposcopy fine ...
Meant to go bk a year later for another smear...got pregnant so just had a coloposvopy all fine nothing seen..
Went bk a year after baby was born...smear was hpv positive no abnormal cells again...and they wanted to put me bk to 3 years..

I wasn't happy with this .due to history...so she said she will request for a years time..that's this may..recently on and off ive been having spotting after intercourse only tiny amount and now I'm freaking out cells have changed...

Thanks dor listening

Sorry to hear you've been having similar issues.
In Poland they have 6 monthly smear tests as standard, I will definitely be pushing for yearly at least, even if it means having to go private.
With a history of hpv and abnormal cells I think yearly should be standard.
Wishing you well