Are painless deaths real?

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Sorry, this is a dark and triggering post so please don't read if it'll upset you.

I have incurable cancer. Currently doing well, with some luck I might even get 10 years and see my 50th.

But, something that is massively impacting on my life, my sleep, my anxiety is fear of death. Fear of pain more so. All I seem to see is stories of horror where loved ones suffer horribly until they die but surely there are more peaceful deaths? Surely these are the exception?

I just want to be heavily drugged as soon as I am ready and not be awake or suffer at all. Is this even a thing or have I only got horror to come?

If anyone can offer some comfort of any peaceful cancer deaths I would be so grateful.

Me too! My fear of a painful death is real.

. It felt a real privilege to have professionals at the top of their game.
My dad died a year ago, the specialist palliative nursing team were incredible, they seemed, like a good midwife, to know all sorts of specialist tricks and tactful ways to make the experience actually quite awe-inspiring to witness.
It was a real positive in a shitty situation to see them work.
A little thing, but they'd just shift pillows a little bit and immediately my dad looked more comfortable. There's some lovely people out there.