Baldy head!

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I am really struggling with this aspect of chemo.
Was diagnosed with breast cancer and I have had 2 chemos so far.
Used the cold cap both times but it's not had much effect and I am already nearly bald.
I have the pretty chemo scarves and also a wig but despite everyone assuring me I look OK, and despite me being outwardly cheerful and upbeat, inside I am deeply upset.
I know the treatment is harsh and I am grateful for the chance to have the cancer treated but I feel so rubbish about myself and my secret appearance.
I have supportive adult children but there's no way I would let them see me sans hair, it freaks me out.
Only had the 2nd chemo 2 days ago and more planned soon, so am feeling a bit wobbly generally.
Anyone else feel the same/ got any tips to help me overcome this please? X

Hello my love. I’m so sorry you are where you are right now.

I found losing my hair to be the very worst bit of treatment. It absolutely devastated me. Those first few weeks are just awful, but it will get…..not easier, but easier to accept in your own home at least. I went bald at home after a month or so when I realised it was ridiculous to hide there. The kids and hubby never batted an eyelid to be fair to them, which really strengthened my resolve to not hide at home. I started chemo in August mind, so did tend to wear a little hat 24:7 including to bed by about October just because I was so cold!

I hated my NHS wig. I looked so very not me. I ended up buying several Haircube wigs on Amazon for about £20 each, then butchering them with a fringe and fiddling with the parting to make them look more natural. You can YouTube this.

I’m a year out from ending treatment now, my hair is now down to my ears from the parting, I’ve had a trim to prevent mullets happening, and it’s finally at a point where I can style it and feel better.

Huge hugs for you, there are so many of us on here who understand how you feel. There is a cancer support thread in General Health where we all live (this forum has only been here a few weeks) and you can get plenty of advice and support if you wish.