Over the last five years, life has been chaotic. Huge stresses on our marriage (distance and money, not abuse/cheating/lying) , moving across Canada during covid to a place I'd never seen, poorly health for myself and DC, and too many smaller things to mention.
I coped by eating what ever the heck I wanted, whenever I wanted. I have drank way, 
way more than I should have (which is a whole other dragon I am slaying right now) .
My previously very active lifestyle has dive bombed to evening walks and weekend hikes.
I need to turn this bus around, and find a new way. I feel embarrassed and ashamed to find myself here, but there you go, it's where I am right now.
So.
As of this morning, I am back to using my nutrition tracker. I'm walking to work later today instead of driving.
I stepped on a scale for the first time in three months.
This is a self made mess; I know if focus long enough, I can work towards being healthy again.
I am so bad though at staying focused, I'm the ultimate "shows potential, but lacks follow through" person.
Not sure what I'm asking for, maybe tips to not fade out ten days from now...?