So this morning I went on the scale and it showed 18st
and I just felt so sad and fed up with the number. (My electronic scale ran out of batteries so I dont know about how many pounds on top)
I have lost weight before and I keep losing 1 or 2st and then putting it back after. And I just feel angry at myself and a little bit down about this. 
I started swimming and MFP but I just need some support from people as I am feeling like it will be impossible to lose all of the extra weight. I need to lose 6 stones
and that just seems so much and it feels difficult to even think about it.
For me the big goal to start with is to get under 16st for the first time in years. I will be updating this but please give me some encouraging words, I really need that.