I have never had a weight problem. I am 5'4" and have always weighed between 8.7lb and 9 stones. If I get to 9 stn I am panicking that I am getting fat so rein myself in and stop eating rubbish and snacks. I have now got down to 8.7lb and am full of disappointment and guilt if I eat even anything out of the allowed amount of calories. I don't' calorie count as such but I am aware of calorific value and cannot enjoy even a chocolate or a mid evening snack. I hate the thought of getting over this weight and though it is not a problem for me now I am not enjoying eating any more as it is weighted with guilt.