I feel bit broken. Like I have missed something that other people do automatically. it will be dinner in 40 minutes and I've just eaten a load of flap jack. I'm not hungry. It's some freaking compulsion but it's not.
I started a calorie controlled diet on monday and already I'm fucking it up. I set myself some small exercise goals haven't stuck to them. I hate the way my body looks and how it feels. 12 months ago I was about 4 kilos above my goal weight feeling happy and healthy and now I'm 25 kilos up. I feel like suck a dick for not been able to feed myself properly.