I have finally realised what is causing my deep anxiety and stress. My husband is a covert narcissist and uses every opportunity to relentlessly cause panic, anxiety, frustration, anger. He constantly finds ways to get a rise out of me then he twists the truth to blame me, gaslight me etc. I am frightened of him. I am just surviving each day with stomach ache, nausea, exhaustion. I can’t sleep. It’s so covert that nothing can be proved, he acts completely normally in company. Even I didn’t see it until I read an article. I thought I was just a very anxious person but it’s all him.
How do I end this? He will escalate the awful behaviours if I try to end the marriage. I can’t leave, he will need to be the one to leave but he would get even more devious and controlling and make my life hell.