I think my milk came in on Saturday night; it was definitely in full flow throughout Sunday. DS has agreed to sleep on DP for about an hour at a time now, so that's progress of sorts, and means that in the last 24 hours, I have achieved three one-hour sleeps, each one following stuffing DS silly with milk. One feed was almost three hours; where does he put it all?
So now it's 3.30am, and as I sent DP to bed at 11.30, I don't want to wake him to take over as the baby's human sofa until 6 am, so I just need to get through another 2.5 hours and DS might let me leave him for an hour so I can sleep. I hope there'll be lots of MNers up too, as telly makes me sleepy, and I am terrified of dropping off with my vulnerable little bundle crashed out on me. Oh! he's stirring now. No - zonked out again. God, he's so cute.
Anyway, I called the breastfeeding counselor at my hospital and left a message, but her voicemail says that one should consult the community midwife, go to one of the borough's BF clinics, or call BF Network or Leche League. Maybe she's not someone who helps in person herself. I would go to a drop-in clinic, but they are not nearby (they closed the one at the Children's Centre a few hundred metres away), and I don't feel confident about going out far with a five day old DS when the weather is so awful, as we have no car. The community midwife calls for her 2nd visit tomorrow, but her time constraints means she can't spend the time I need to master this. I'm trying to find out whether there are people who you can pay to come to your home and spend a couple of hours really sorting out your BF problems.
I have read so much and seen so many animations on what you're supposed to do, but when DS is squealing and angry because he's desperate to get on the boob, stuffing his tiny fists in his mouth and snapping his gums like a turtle, it's really hard to get his in the right position and latch. DP helps a lot, restraining his arms and padding his body up to a comfortable level, but it just gets the experience off to an awkward start each time. When it begins well however, I feel so pleased and happy.
Still can't decide what to do about which pump, whether to pump, sterilising, storage - there is too much choice, and we can't even decide on a name, which we've had 8 months to think about. Poor no name, milk-addict baby.