First day dd hasn't had breastmilk since she was born

[ScorpiowithabigS]

She is 10 months in 5 days.

I have felt somewhat forced into stopping BF; i didn't want to. On Monday i started miscarrying at nearly 6 weeks, and the shock etc seems to have stopped my milk.

I exc BF for 6 months, since January we only did morning and night, but still.

I feel like i have failed her in some ways, i was considering tandem feeding....or stopping at 1, well not now anyway. I didn't even plan on BF her, as i FF my first 2 dc. MNers helped me to BF (thankyou, you know who you are, i will always owe you)

I have done ok, haven't I? She won't miss it will she? I hope to BF my one day dc4 forever and ever and ever.

Just hoped by writing this down it may help. Thankyou all for reading.

You've done wonderfully for her because you've done evrtything you possibly could for her. She's a lucky girl.

Out of interest, does the lack of milk volume bother her? Cos if not, there's nothing to stop you continuing to let her suckle and the milk could well come back.

How do you feel about calling a bfc?

Local BF lady came out on Wednesday to me. Mimi gets very cross at there being no milk, she is happy with idea of a bottle though so at least that is no issue.

I don't feel physically or mentally well enough to try and get supply back, i am just very sad and have so many issues about all of this. I never thought the mc would compromise my BF at all.

Ring a bf counsellor - they're trained to listen to these sorts of feelings. try the nct bfline.

I will try that, thankyou.

Sorry to hear of your loss Scorpio and sorry about your milk. You know you have done great BFing this long.

Well she has been fine on the bottle BUT i am not, i am missing it madly.

Yesterday she fell over, like a domino, complete with chair landing on top of her. My first reaction was to pick her up, i sat down with her and went to undo my bra but then remembered. I miss her, iykwim.

So sorry to hear your news

I think you need to consider if re-establishing BF will help her in the long run, it might also help you.

I would just offer it as usual and see. As BFing was already well established there should still be milk there but perhaps the hormones are playing with it.

Very unscientific I know! But perhaps with a few days she will get back to the old routine?

I still miss that close bond, and she stopped a month or so ago!

I'm sorry Scorpio. I remember your story. I even remember your birth announcement and your early bfing days. Congratulations on getting this far.

WOuld you be nervous about feeding again whilst ttcing?

I had a similar experience. I fell pregnant again and although I am sad at ending bfing prematurely I did fall pg again very soon and although my DS isn't interested in 'from-the-source' I do sneak expressed bm into his food. Not the same I know, but helps a little.

The milk went over a week ago now , and she was only having it twice a day, i wasnt physically strong enough feeling iyswim to try then, I just miss it, badly.

I would be very nervous about early pg and BF again - i associate the two totally now.

It's kind of sad when you finish bf-ing at whatever age they are [sad wistful smile]. You've had a fab experience this time round, remember the lovely times and carry that forward to your future dc4.

this is my only experience of BF; i FF the boys, so i guess its even more special.

Hope the bf councellor helps. I am a new mum and the only thing I have learnt for sure is to not dwell on things too long, it seems most decisions can be agonising - you have done brilliantly to bf for 10 months, well done