I've been wondering about this today. I fed dd for 10 mopnths, and it involved a lot of expressing from the first week onwards as she went to full time nursery at 8 weeks when I went back to uni. It involved going completely cold turkey, co-incided ith a streddful house move and generally when I look back it makes me feel pretty sad about the whole situation- if I'm honest, I have a lot of body image issues and I also wanted to start losing some serious weight that had been hanging around after pregnancy, and I just couldn't lose any while feeding. Ds is now 6 months old and I am having the same dilemma- I would like to start losing weight (I put on a lot when pg and am just not happy being this size) but at the same time I don't want to stop feeding. But I think if I do end up feeding ds for longer than dd I will feel even guiltier. We were out yesterday at a play cafe and I saw my first real life 3 or 4 year old bf and I thought, good on that woman. I don't intend to do it for that long but I would like to try and do it until ds is happy to stop rather than forcing him iyswim. Is it normal to feel like this?