Thanks everyone for your inputs. Pixiefish- your story is inspiring.
Briezheit- I'm taking 120mg/ day- sounds like a lot! DD has refused all attempts at giving her a bottle so it's all up to me.
My story, in brief: BF went well to 3 months, birth fine (at home) and supply was abundant with strong let down (leaking/ gushing/ spraying etc) At 3 months had big argument with DH and boobs went flat and empty and let down disappeared. After a few days I went to GP who px'd metoclorpramide which brought back my milk but caused depression (bloody awful drug!) It got so bad after 6 weeks that I stopped taking it- and milk supply crashed again. I tend to react badly to stress and have been stressed out recently.
Now on domperidone and finding that even on a high dose I am not convinced that DD is totally satisfied.
She's not the happy settled baby that she used to be and is waking 3-4 times per night for feeds. I am exhausted. She refuses bottles- we've tried all the tricks, and I'm worried that it's traumatising her to keep trying with them. She's not lost weight but just seems hungry, sometimes uncomfortably so, most of the time.
My dilemma is wether to continue with what feels like an uphill struggle with boobs that always seem empty and a baby who never gets a good bellyful on my pitiful let down and poor supply, until she's fully weaned and can drink formula from a cup, or throw in the towel and stop the BF altogether until she has to take a bottle and risk a traumatised baby. DD is now 5 1/2 months. We have started to wean but she's not accepting much solids yet.
(sorry that wasn't so brief)