I have a 19 month old and a 4 month old. I had the intention of tandem feeding the two of them, however, I found it impossible with a newborn who was feeding on demand constantly and a toddler who wanted to fight the baby of the breast which was all hers. Well to put it simply the last 4 months have been absolute hell. The toddler would cry for hours and she still cannot be soothed, even now 3 months after fully weaning she cries significantly and we really struggle to put her to sleep. I have tried everyrhing. Usually she cries to sleep or we walk around with her singing/ rubbing her back etc when she is tired until she falls asleep. She is okay during the day and has accepted her sister feeding and even shows affection towards her.
The problem is I am very guilty of having forced this upon her and seeing her like this is really taking a toll on me. Even through the pregnancy I feel she was dry nursing for comfort and didn’t get the health benefits of BF.
So I have a huge milk supply. Am I crazy to give in after all these months and let the toddler BF again, now she has accepted her sister, or is this the hormones and guilt and have I gone completely mad? Is it even beneficial for her at this point? Will she start wanting it all for herself again? What about expressing as I have so much just for the health benefits as I feel so guilty.?
Sorry for the long post the guilt is making me overthink and I really need to sleep.