It is something that I do want to do and I feel is the right thing to do. I feel very happy that I have managed to breastfeed for 22 and a half months.
I've been wanting to stop for quite a while now, but have been putting it off. Recent events brought it to a head, so I made the decision to stop a couple of nights ago.
Poor DD is very sad in the morning and the evenings at the moment when she goes for a feed and I say sorry, but we're not having breastmilk anymore. When she cries, it is not like the massive tantrums she usually has. It is a really quiet, sad cry This morning she went very quietly in a corner to have a little cry to herself. She is getting lots of kisses and cuddles and reassurance that mummy still loves her very much, and to be fair she recovers from her little crying sessions very quickly, but it is still horrible
From my point of view I felt OK about it all until last night when I felt my breasts being full of milk and hurting. I haven't had that sensation for months and months. In fact, I have been doubting how much milk she is actually getting because I haven't been physically aware of the milk in my breasts for so long.
I've had a few little crys since then, and am feeling very sad about it all. I've tried to talk to DH about it, but he doesn't really understand.
I'm not sure what will happen within my own body now that I am not feeding anymore. What happens to the milk in my breasts at the moment - does it get absorbed back in the body or will it leak out? Will the feeling of my breasts being full go on for a long time?
Thanks for listening. I just wanted to talk about it to some people who might understand.