Long story. DS is 15 days old and EBF. Born by cesarean at 38 weeks as I have type 1 diabetes and he weighed 9lb 6oz. Stayed in hospital for 5 days. It was awful. Staff refusing to give me pain relief, they got confused about what his glucose levels should be and over treated him, made me try to feed him when he wasn't hungry and also top him up with a bottle. Wasn't allowed to EBF until day 4 so my milk didn't come in until day 5. Also he was (and still is) jaundiced. Hospital midwives checked his jaundice levels twice with a light gun - said they were fine, but 6 days later my community midwife said that they weren't fine and he should have had blood tests as he probably needed treatment, hence why he's still jaundiced. He lost 12.3% birth weight and is now down to 9.6%. The health visitor weighed him 5 days ago he'd gained 80g in 2 days she was happy. Midwife weighed him yesterday and he'd only gained 20g in 4 days. Midwife is very concerned about this and wants to weigh him every other day which is stressing me out and causing anxiety. He seems to feed well, is having wet and poo nappies. He is my 3rd baby. midwife wants me to pump and top up with a bottle. But I'm feeding a lot and I just don't think there is time to do that as well. Plus I don't see the point when he can just get the breast milk from me directly. I've always had big babies, they never stay on the percentile that they are born on (99th) both my girls started there and came down to an average size. So I think he's probably not gaining lots because he doesn't need to. But the midwife has got in my head and I'm worried and I feel like she's saying I'm not feeding him enough, but I literally can't feed him anymore. I've contacted breast feeding support to check that I am doing it ok. And we have prolonged jaundice clinic next week. I really don't want him weighed every 2 days - I can't drive to get to the surgery, and it stresses me out. Can I politely refuse? My only other worry is that what if he stops gaining at all, or starts losing weight? Any help/advice appreciated!